Be it. Go there. Have it. Do it.

Hey there!! I'm Teliah Tattiana Rose - The Bull - Loyal T - Swint!! But you can call me Coach T.

I am a Tap Out Instructor. Meaning that I'm going to teach you how to change for real.

From teaching mixed martial arts in the Marine Corps to being in labor with my daughter for 86 hours without medication -- life has taught me a few things about admitting defeat. However, over the past few years I have become especially versed in figuring out what to do -- next. 

In fact from 2019 to 2022 I had experienced a few things that really had a way of shaking me up. I, got injured in a car accident, had a baby, got promoted, my family moved in with me to help with the baby while I worked, I got out of the Marine Corps, gained 40 pounds, tried real estate, became fully disabled for severe PTSD, depression, postpartum depression, bi-polar disorder, battered woman syndrome, sciatica (nerve damage), full blown migraines, severe back pain, oh and I blacked out for 3 days but my body was still animated so was admitted to a mental institution, then I failed at real estate, bought a house, tried school, planned and DIY'd a wedding, failed at school, got rhabdomylosis real bad (3000+ IU), put my ex-husband in jail for domestic abuse, got re-married, lost my mind again assaulted my husband and went back to the institution, started a cleaning business, worked the business, lost 40 pounds from work and general stress, worked myself into another period where I should have been admitted but instead of struggling on December 12th 2022... I - just - tapped - out. I prayed/meditated and I was done. I gave it up. All of it.

I listened to Jen Sincero's " You are a badass at making money" audiobook and just like that... something clicked. Maybe it was the toilet water splashing in my mouth and on my lip for the last time... I don't know. Something just clicked. -- I was over it. I had been like Sponge Bob (I'm ready I'm ready I'm ready) for pain because I'm a masochist apparently. But that day I was more a kin to Forest Gump when he was -- DONE running. I began to realize that, I was good. Tired. Done. I didn't want to run anymore. I didn't want to fight anymore. I didn't't want to feel pain anymore. I wanted to sit down and have a glass of mouthwash. That's all I wanted. And that would have been enough... -- BUT God / Universal Energy / Ancient Souls of All of The Mothers of Thee Earth!! (It's a "Black" expression "But God" if you don't get it don't worry bout it.)

I was in for a big surprise! I had a spiritual awakening. I surrendered and something took over. I was ready to quit, to let the darkness in and take over again (that is whatever monster is in charge of stress, fear, anxiety, isolation, worry, shame, defeat... all of it). I was tired of it all so THAT DAY I decided to let go, to lean into the unknown valley of my mind. Afraid of my demons but surrounded by people I love I let myself flow... I closed and locked my office door, lit some incense, I put my headphones in and danced, drank water, and exercised, and wrote, and sang, and stretched, and prayed/meditated, and drew, and let myself do all of the things that made me feel safe in and out of my mind. I asked for help when I needed it, they brought me water and food, they let me take my time... right at home.. my people loved me like a Wakandan Queen (my family that was tired of seeing me die / lose my mind to stress) and then...

I felt like -- no, I knew that I was going to die that day -- like actually die or black out again. I thought I was going to have another nervous break down, snap, or lose it again-- something! Like being in labor I could feel that something was coming. But then -- I sat up and just DECIDED to get comfortable and to lean into whatever energy was trying to take me over because I BELIEVED that something good would come of it. And my goodness if only you knew.

I did what the ancient witchy voices in my head were telling me to do. I was having a break through and I rested when I was tired, I ate when I was hungry, I scratched when it itched, I adjusted when I needed to, I was focused, it was easy, and just like that it was suddenly easy TO BE again. I found a mirror and I could see, smell, touch, taste, and feel -- my self again. 

Just like that, all the DISCIPLINE (that ancient old beast) I had in my body became soft and squishy. It left me. I chose to be comfortable / let myself flow and -- no more pain. My spirit guides told me that I had run my race and run it well. The old me died. Pain. War. Defeat. Then Victory & Peace. I had an experience y'all. I elevated. I FLAMED ON and VIBRATED!!!! I vibrated out of the darkness like a Phoenix. Sober too by the way. I had a real experience with GOD, Universal Energy, and the Ancient Mothers of the Earth! A real experience with Love and Peace. And that's what I bring to you as a gift. I brought back with me peace. All the way from the grave. With Grace.

Today, (it's still 2022 while I'm writing this y'all) I'm free as a bird and I can prove it. I'm good at pain. I'm just as good at inflicting it as I am at receiving it and I want to help you Tap Out with Grace. I want YOU to FEEL what I FEEL. I want the energy in your body to VIBRATE!!!! I want YOU to RISE UP from the dead and FLY like a Phoenix! I want you TO BE whoever the heck YOU want TO BE.

I wanna help you LOVE yourself, your family, your work, your art, and your own got damn life. I wanna show you How To Live. I want you to do what you love. I want you to do what you fear, and be free. Free - To Be or Not To Be. 

I want you to do what chu want. 

Play the game and do it right. 

I can show you how. 

If you trust me.

With Grace

Coach T